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March Forth on his 64th

"Please at all times be good to yourself. Life really is the better choice; meant to be enjoyed, not endured...." 
"I just woke up at 4 am and felt the need to write this to you. I love you lots, and always will, whatever you do and whenever you do it. I want only the best for you and your sisters." 
Those are quotes from emails my father wrote me. This week I have not been listening. I have not heeded his advice. I have not been good to myself. I have been isolating and for one 36 hour stretch I left the house only once.
Today is March 4th 2014, which would have been my father's 64th birthday. As I've written before, my father's birthday was also his motto: March Forth. I have adopted it as my own. And yet, I haven't been marching anywhere this week. I have been stuck in the mud and I haven't even struggled to remove myself. I've allowed it to wash over me and pin me down. I've barely picked up the phone when people have called me, let a…